Heavy Heart

I wish my son talked.

I wish he could tell me about...
His reason for crying after waking.
What he sees out the car window.
What he thinks about using scissors.
What he wants.
What he would like to do.

The list goes on.

I know it frustrates him.
Frustrates me.
Frustrates all that are involved.

I see his anger.
His desire to TRULY want to communicate.

And I wish so badly, I could help him.

Put the words in his mouth.  In his brain.

We've already had second opinions.
He receives speech every week.
And we work with him at home.
And the majority consensus is to WAIT,
Until he's three.

But sometimes,
Like today.
When he is screaming his sister's name in the car.
Babbles on and on trying to tell her something.
And when BOTH of us have no clue what he's saying...
It gives me a HUGE heavy heart.
Makes me feel bad.
Makes me cry.

Because I SO terrible want to understand our handsome boy.
Our SMART boy.
Our OUTGOING boy.
Our LOVING boy.

Love you buddy.

Top 7 for the Week:
(10-21-13)

7.  Colds.  Have infested our house.  First with the kids and now with Jay.  I have somehow missed the boat on this one.  Although I woke up with a headache this morning.  Hopefully I haven't jinxed myself!  Rest, fluids, and supplements!

6.  New Boots.  Unfortunately, Atlanta wasn't as hot as we thought it would be.  I did not prepare for the chilliness...so I had to go buy new winter boots.  Not such a bad thing, right?!?!

5.  Waking in the Night.  Due to the colds...kids got up several times during the night almost every night.  UGH.  Makes for one tired mommy.  And daddy.  I was just telling my MIL how our kids are great sleeping through the night.  And seriously THAT night, it started.  And lasted until we left for Atlanta.  The uninterrupted sleep on vacation was great.  Even though we were up late!

4.  Prepping for Trip.  Sometimes I feel like vacation prepping is SO much.  I'm weird about having a clean house before I leave (including having laundry and dishes done).  Not sure why.  But I swear it makes me crazy.  And I'm pretty sure it drives Jay crazy! 

3.  Clayisms.  Clay had a chance to practice with scissors this week and he thought he was king!  I was surprised to see him using his left hand.  But he did a GREAT job!  And he was so proud of himself!  Another activity that he can do JUST like his sister:o)  I ran errands with him this week....CRAZY!  Now I remember why I choose NOT to run errands with my 2 year old.  He is definitely at a tantrum, I-want-my-own-way, stage.  He has such an opinion about everything.  Just wish he would learn to use his words.

2.  Malloryisms.  Sometimes I seriously cannot believe how much of her dad is in her.  Her goofy, teasing ways are SO her dad.  One day this week, as I was downloading pics onto the computer, she randomly called me Beth Ann.  To my face.  It was hilarious.  With this great big grin on her face.  And she repeated it several times.  Another night this week, as I went into kiss her sleeping head, I whispered "I love you" and she responded back "doggies."  Can't make that stuff up.  Such an animal lover.  Even in her sleep. 

1.  Hot Atlanta.  Jay and I had SO much fun!  It was SO nice to get away and just be US for a few days (make that four days!).  Thanks to both of our parents for watching the kids...it is so comforting knowing they are in good hands.  And we can relax and enjoy ourselves!  We actually had a lot of time to ourselves.  We walked, ate, drank, talked, reconnected, recharged.  It was great.  And so needed.  I'm not going to say Monday with the kids was easy...but it was SO worth it. 

I'm SUPER late this week.
And I might even write again tomorrow.

But I got this past week in!
Hope you enjoyed your Halloween!
Hello November!

Until tomorrow,
Mrs. Newell